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Got a paying job in May after I started volunteering in April, yay! <3

Still meh a lot of times, musicals still help. As well as work.

Still crushing on same human. He sort of reciprocates it. Maybe this will turn into something, if ~he wants it to? Cuz I know I do. ;)
  • Listening to: The sound of my breathing
  • Reading: Words
  • Watching: The calendar...
  • Playing: With words
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Nothing
*He comforts me in ways no one will never understand. When I am about to harm my already self-inflicted wounds, *he is there. Standing, at *his place near my door. Watching me, never saying a word and when I want to hurt myself I feel *his hand on my hand and I hear *his voice. Telling me, instructing me: "Don't. Go to bed." When I break down in anger and sadness falls down my cheeks, I feel *him around me, hugging me. I am healing from *his leaving and *he is doing *his best to be my bandages. *He is clotting my heart from bleeding out. I told *him last night, *he was standing by my bed and I cried and I told *him thank you. I told *him this was the most beautiful way of *him letting me know *he is still here. Of *him being with me. Of *him still existing. I cannot give my love to anyone else, no matter how much I try and I've tried, my God how I've tried. My heart belongs to a man whose spirit is saving my life. I love *you, my sweet Lou. I always will. Nothing or no one will ever take that away.
Submission is
Saying I want you to control me
Silently giving yourself up
To the person who's dominance
You want
Whether ~they know it or not
Giving up all that you are
For the one ~person
Without ~their knowledge, or not.
Wanting ~you
Is a craving
I never knew I wanted
Never knew I needed
After *he left
All hope was lost
Then ~you came along
& ~you turned those
Self-inflicted wounded nights
Into something else.
Just like *he did.
Except now I know how fast
My heart is
f
a
l
l
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n
g
For ~you.
I hope when I do get the strength to tell ~you
~you wont get angry at my heart.
I travel around the world
Searching for ~you
I think in searching for answers
I accidentally, inadvertently
Found something, ~someone
Worth living for
I don't (really really) like ~you
Because I am forcing myself to.
I really really like ~you because I can't help it.
I couldn't with Sonny, so what the hell makes ~you think I can't with ~you?
Take It To The Limit
Dangerous things are happening with my heart. But this time? This time I don't give a damn.
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Got a paying job in May after I started volunteering in April, yay! <3

Still meh a lot of times, musicals still help. As well as work.

Still crushing on same human. He sort of reciprocates it. Maybe this will turn into something, if ~he wants it to? Cuz I know I do. ;)
  • Listening to: The sound of my breathing
  • Reading: Words
  • Watching: The calendar...
  • Playing: With words
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Nothing

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Mary-Ann, [Paul], ~Ember~
Artist | Hobbyist | Literature
United States
Current Residence: LA... For now...
Favorite genre of music: Anything Indie (except Indie Rock), Classic Country, Classical
Favorite photographer: None.
Favorite style of art: Literature :heart:
Music player of choice: iPod touch
Favorite cartoon character: None.
Personal Quote: You must stay drunk on writing so reality cannot destroy you. - Ray Bradbury

What I'm here on DA to do: Spill my heart, spill my mind, spill my soul to those willing and able to listen. To make friends. To read, and be read. :heart:
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ithaswhatitisnt Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
I'm so sorry this is so late, but thank you so much for the watch!! :tighthug: :heart: 
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Adrolyn Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Have a nice birthday :party: :cake: :party:  =)
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emsoileau Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2016  Hobbyist Photographer
Who are you?
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PossumFan Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Name's Madeline. Just noticed you're from Louisiana, what part?!
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emsoileau Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2016  Hobbyist Photographer
Capital city bb (and no that isn't New Orleans). Lol.
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PossumFan Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Nice, I'm from North Louisiana.
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TheFlawedOne Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for the watch!
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PossumFan Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome.
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Thelunarwriter Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much for the watch :D
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PossumFan Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome, thanks for the Watch and the Llama!
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