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As y'all know, I haven't been on DA really much at all or writing hardly anything. Over these past few months I've realized something:  I'm not going to get better if I keep focusing on the past. I'm not going to grow as a Christian. I have started witnessing to Sonny. I don't know how strong his faith is, but I'll do all I can to make it as strong as mine.  I have made amends to the ones who said Sonny had cancer, to my ex for cheating on him, and to a few other people. I'm not, nor will I ever be, done with making amends. They have moved Sonny's court date to Sept. 22. I have been praying for him constantly. I'm worried about him spiritually, and I told him this. I wrote him an email a week ago saying that I would help him with his alcoholism, but I know I cannot do that until his walk with God is solid. You cannot give away what you haven't got. I also told him that God loves him and that I'd like to see him in Heaven someday. Another reason I wanted to write this journal is to say I will be deleting selective writings that I have written about him. I asked him if he wanted me to, and he said "Whatever you'd like to do". I just think it's best, due to this new chapter in my life.

No asteriks needed. Not anymore. Praise be to God!!
  • Mood: Compassion
  • Listening to: The sound of my breathing
  • Reading: Words
  • Watching: The calendar...
  • Playing: With words
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Nothing
The same moon.
Just different phases.
There was one a monster.

This monster was a  semi-happy girl.

Then along a *human did appear.

Turned her life around.

The monster was elated.

Then the *human ripped her heart into a billion pieces.

The monster is struggling.

The monster wants to drink.

The monster wants to end her life.

The monster thinks she will never be happy again.

The monster needs help.

The *human does not care.
Of Whores And Humans
. . . . . . . . . Null...
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I love *you. I love *you. I love *you. Will that put me in *your arms. Sadly, no. I have a bit of wine in me but baby let's not waste our sweet time. Only have 24 hours. I could have told *you so much sooner. Should have. I crave *you. Every night, I want *your arms around my body. Staring into *your eyes like my God will the moon ever shine again because the sun always shine in *your eyes. It's all I can see. So, I love *you.

I hope to *GOD* I don't implode one of these days, because some nights

*you're
just
too
much for my mind to bear.
Longing Ever Still
I FUCKING MISS *HIM!!!!!!!!!!
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Okay, so as y'all know, I'm an alcoholic. I've been doing 4 different sets of AA meetings through email, and also on Facebook. I've been in them since March, and I have learned *so much* about myself, and about God. I'm writing down a nightly gratitude list, I'm reciting the Serenity Prayer multiple times a day when I feel overwhelmed, I'm praying more, and I'm learning to BREATHE before I react! Being an alcoholic changed my life for the worse, but being in AA is changing my life for the better!!! God is so good right now! ODAAT, all the time!!!!! :heart:
  • Mood: Euphoric
  • Listening to: The sound of my breathing
  • Reading: Words
  • Watching: The calendar...
  • Playing: With words
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Nothing
As y'all know, I haven't been on DA really much at all or writing hardly anything. Over these past few months I've realized something:  I'm not going to get better if I keep focusing on the past. I'm not going to grow as a Christian. I have started witnessing to Sonny. I don't know how strong his faith is, but I'll do all I can to make it as strong as mine.  I have made amends to the ones who said Sonny had cancer, to my ex for cheating on him, and to a few other people. I'm not, nor will I ever be, done with making amends. They have moved Sonny's court date to Sept. 22. I have been praying for him constantly. I'm worried about him spiritually, and I told him this. I wrote him an email a week ago saying that I would help him with his alcoholism, but I know I cannot do that until his walk with God is solid. You cannot give away what you haven't got. I also told him that God loves him and that I'd like to see him in Heaven someday. Another reason I wanted to write this journal is to say I will be deleting selective writings that I have written about him. I asked him if he wanted me to, and he said "Whatever you'd like to do". I just think it's best, due to this new chapter in my life.

No asteriks needed. Not anymore. Praise be to God!!
  • Mood: Compassion
  • Listening to: The sound of my breathing
  • Reading: Words
  • Watching: The calendar...
  • Playing: With words
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Nothing

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Mary-Ann, [Paul], ~Ember~
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Current Residence: LA... For now...
Favorite genre of music: Anything Indie (except Indie Rock), Classic Country, Classical
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Favorite style of art: Literature :heart:
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Personal Quote: You must stay drunk on writing so reality cannot destroy you. - Ray Bradbury

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Waah~~ Thank you so much for the watch dear! :heart: I'm very flattered that you enjoy my work enough to consider watching me. :blushes: :huggle:
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Thank you very much for the watch. :heart:
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Thanks for the watch :)
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